Feeling grateful...

For my mom. She is the most wonderful person I have ever met, flawed and all. If I have grown and will continue to grow into half the woman she is, I would be proud of myself. I am grateful for..

.... her unconditional love. it's almost as if it come easy to her; she is so full of love and constantly gives it unselfishly.

.... her lack of judgment. i have made so many mistakes, i don't always make the right choice the first time. i'm the type of person who has to live inside the fire to realize i shouldn't have touched it to begin with. i have never, ever, felt judgment for any of the times that living in the fire burned me. i have only experience open arms.

.... her ability to see the beauty that exists everywhere. not only does she see it, she tells you about it. she is one of the only people i feel beautiful around, she glows with her babies around, it makes me feel like a princess.

.... her fearlessness. she is willing to try anything. do anything. and she's tough enough to do it. she honestly amazes me, beyond all measures of amazement.


.... her prayers. she has a special connection with God that i am simply awed by. i love to hear her pray, to watch her pray, and to see and hear the heartfelt cry out to Him.

.... her toughness. which brings me to tears at this point. she is having surgery, like it isn't anything at all. i am going home to care for her, but i feel like i'll arrive and she won't even need me there. i know she instilled this in all three of us, but she is the epitome of tough.



i hope that i have the ability to pray for her the way she has prayed for me so many times... i'll see you sunday, mommy.

love.